Life is a playground

Life is a playground where you can choose your character.
I’ve gone through many phases: a boyish look, cute and smiley, heavy makeup, always practical, colorful, trying to be a “baddie,” and lately a very natural, no-makeup era.

Now I feel like I’m facing my fears, because I’ve been wearing all these styles as armor up until this moment. The safest armor for me has been to blend into the background and stay practical. And when I do dress up, it’s usually in a cute, people-pleasing way.

But I don’t like the kind of behavior I attract with my “always kind” look.
I naturally look very kind, big eyes, soft features, and it has been both a blessing and a burden.

Now that I’ve dyed my hair brown, it feels like I can start building a look that commands more respect. But the truth is, I’m still afraid of being seen.

So I keep wondering: am I supposed to build a tougher armor, or should I focus on raising my self-worth in my own eyes?