Sometimes it feels like everything we’ve been through is following us. But it isn’t. Every day is day 0. Nothing carries over, not the weight, not the mistakes, not the fear, unless we bring them with us. I’ve lived through heavy things. I don’t live there anymore. This blog is where I remember that. 

I’ve known this, deep down I have. I’ve known, that I’m scared to do the things, that I truly want to do in this life. The fear is so huge, that I keep burying my dreams somewhere on my minds corners and convince myself to pursue something similar to the dream but not the dream itself.

So I went and looked the film school’s film director’s application pre-assigments, even though I had already made the decision to apply to the documentary studies. And the first story writing assigments title was “Facing fear”.

I’ll take that as a sign to apply there again this year. And I will write the story about a blonde self doubting girl wanting to be a famous movie director.

In the sky, there were birds made of clouds today. ❤

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